I am so grateful that God sent his son to die; his blood covering my sins. It is an amazingly relieving truth to know that I am forgiven. In order for this truth to become a reality though, Jesus did have to die. That is not a pretty sight. It is gruesome and ugly, and yet somehow the truth of forgiveness is beautiful.
If you have ever wondered if Jesus’s blood is good enough for your sins, notice the way it is described in the bible: his blood was poured, not dripped, not leaking, not sipped, but spilled out. If you have a bucket of paint and you pour it out over your painting, nothing is left uncovered. Every nook and cranny is filled with the paint. So to is your life. Every nook and cranny is filled with forgiveness.
Okay, so maybe the forgiveness helps hide some of the sin but does it really cover it? Isn’t it still there underneath?
In an old small group that we were a part of, we did some art worship (shout our to Dan and Krissann Janowitz). As I worshiped God with my horrendous painting ability, I learned something about forgiveness. When I started, I want to make my colors a little darker, so I added just a little bit of black. It didn’t take long, and every color that I had put on the page was black. Very little shown through the black, except the things that I intentionally tried to keep the black away from (and even then, this was a hard process).
God’s forgiveness is the same way. Forgiveness doesn’t mean that we can hide our sin, but instead that the cost that has been incurred by sinning has been payed in full. It no longer exists. You are forgiven.
If you are struggling to know that you are forgiven,. I encourage you to read the bible and see the truth that God has shared with us. We are more forgiven than we could ever know.
If you still struggle with knowing you are forgiven, I encourage you to talk to your pastors and start exploring what the Bible says about forgiveness with them. Start the conversation and God will help finish it.