What does it mean to trust God? We often say things like “if we trust God, then everything will be alright”. This is 100% true, but probably not in the way that you expect.
If we trust in God He will care for you, it may change your perspective of God and/or the situation, but it will not make everything “alright” as we may think of it. Jeremiah 29:11 is just as true for Daniel in the lines den, Shadrach Meshach and Abednego in the fiery furnace, and Jesus on the cross. Gods plan, (and by extension our trust in that plan) is for our good, because He loves us, but sometimes the things that are for our good can be painful. Sometimes, that means ripping our safety net out from underneath us. Sometimes, trusting God means having to step away from our place of comfort. Sometimes, living according to Gods plan can be painful, hurting us deeply.
This is a thought that I have had for a while and would love to hear your perspective on it. Please comment on this blog to continue this conversation.
Recently, I have taken this idea to the next step. I often think about what an ideal Christian life is or what it should look like; rarely do I actually take these ideas and test them against what God has said, and then (this is the part that I usually fail at) let it transform my life. The question God recently confronted me with was: What am I not trusting God with? What am I clinging to that is preventing Him from using me more fully?
If I am honest, I am still not sure that I have a good answer to that question. The hard part is that, I think, the reason that I do not have a good answer is because I have not let go of whatever thing I am clinging to enough to see that I was clinging in the first place.
Okay, so that seems convoluted, but imagine that you have are blindfolded and someone hands you an object and tells you to hold it close, and don’t let go. Now you take the blindfold off and continue with life, clinging to this object obscured from view by your chin. It is not until you can let go that you can see what you are clinging to.
I am going to continue to search my heart to see what it preventing me from more fully trusting God, using Psalm 139 as my guide for my prayer:
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.
Will you join me in the search for the things that we are clinging to that prevents you from trusting God?